Preston will be 7 months old on the 16th of this month. Up until a few weeks ago, he had never had anything but breastmilk straight from the tap.
However, with as well as his introduction to solids has gone? He has still had nothing other than breastmilk straight from the tap.
He also refuses to take it from a bottle. The breastmilk, not the solids.
Normally, this wouldn’t bother me. I would shrug it off, as advised in every baby book and by every (sensible) doctor, and resume on with our breastfeeding regimen. I wholeheartedly believe that a baby will take solids when they are ready to do so.
I also believe that a baby needs to eat (which, I will have you know, is entirely based on fact).
For those just tuning in, I have to find a job. Soon. We literally cannot survive with what we have right now as our sole source of income.
And at this point? I just have a very confused and angry baby each time I try to get him to take a bottle, wherein after a half hour of trying to offer the bottle and/or squeeze small amounts of milk into his mouth so he knows what it is and him reacting only with screaming and acting like I’m trying to kill him ends with me giving up and nursing him. And, no, it doesn’t matter who offers the bottle; it’s outright refusal every time. I should also mention he isn’t a huge fan of pacifiers either because, well, that’s what Momma is for!
The amount of the ever-dreaded “Mom Guilt” is monumental because I now know that I should have begun preparing for this much sooner than I did (in my defense, I had supply issues with my other children and was paranoid that offering to him in a bottle would ultimately have a negative impact – probably incredibly unlikely after the first couple of months with continued full time breastfeeding, but still a very real concern for me.).
So I’m sort of at a loss as to where to go from here. A logical part of me knows (or half-heartedly knows.. because I also know how stubborn this child can be) that, if/when I find work, he will cave and learn and figure it out if he gets hungry enough.
But the Mom part? The Mom part hates to think of the prospect of him hungrily screaming for hours until he passes out from sheer exhaustion. In someone else’s care. Because he just doesn’t understand why everything suddenly changed.
And it literally breaks my heart to think about it.